Wow... it has been about half a year since my last post... and since then, boy, have things changed... it may sound strange, but sometimes, I find that xanga can be very therapeutic... well, for those who I have not spoken to in awhile here is a quick update on what's new since graduating from UW last December:

- I am a professional drug dealer (pharmaceutical sales)
- Moved twice, first time to Federal Way, second time to Kent
- Purchased a condo
- Finally went to New York
- Rekindled my relationship with my girlfriend
- Started tithing religiously (haha)
- Started buying furniture (boy, I am getting old)

So I guess you could say that these are more or less some of the mile stones over the past 6 months, which sounds great, right?  Well, they are, but at the same time... I don't think I have ever felt as lost as I do now.  From a shallow point, it may seem that things are all well and that my ducks are lining up perfectly... but honestly, it's been tough.  Don't get me wrong, I am NOT saying that I am unhappy with my life, nor would I trade anything that I have now, but my goal is to send out a quick reminder of what's really important... and that is GOD.

The funny thing is, one of my best friends from high school and I were hanging out Friday night, just catching up and I realized that I am now living the life which I have always wished I had... but yet, we were sitting there with the an empty feeling of "wow... this is... great?"  Then we got into a "Jesus talk" and realized that true joy ONLY comes from a relationship with God.  Honestly, I have experienced a good amount of this world, and NOTHING even comes close to when your spirit is in one with His.  His goals are your goals, His vision is your vision, His heart is your heart... wow... when was the last time?  For me, it has been awhile, but then again, it's only because I haven't surrendered to Him lately... but just as I am now, He has already given me a sense of peace.

In closing, what I have found is that having faith is a battle.  It is a constant war, whether at work, with friends, or in romantic relationships... we must fight for our faith, otherwise, we will lose it.  Just hold on, and everything will be ok.  I promise.

P.S. - I found this myspace to be very encouraging, read the blog on "worship in a bar":
http://www.myspace.com/nfmagazine

Mood: devistated

Me: "blah, blah, blah, blah, blah..."

God: "DO YOU TRUST ME?"

Me: "yeahhhh....???"

God: "OK then, don't worry about it."

Me: "but...."

God: "DO YOU TRUST ME?"

Me: "Yes, I do."

God: "Enough said."

Dude, this guy is ridiculous! Oh man...I wish I could play like him...

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=1491516901670441597&q=canon

.... ...!!!!